NOTE: I wrote this post in 2016 and I never completed it, but I wanted to post now (in 2018)what I wrote to show some growth since the loss of my mother.
It's been one year since I posted on the blog...a YEAR! How did that much time go by? The last year had many ups and downs. Grief, illness and so many other things that I am sure each of us deal with as well. Now it's 2016 and I say this all the time, I will post more often. I WANT to post more often and I want to post things that are helpful, or entertaining. I've been thinking a lot about what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I pray about it a lot, asking God to open my mind and show me where I fit, what I should be doing, what he wants me to be doing because I feel like I am not doing anything. Being a mom of two children is itself, doing something; being a homemaker is itself doing something, but I want to do more, to feel useful, but what? This is something I have really been praying about and giving a lot of thought on because I also want to find that place in my church where I am needed and can serve to the best of my abilities...whatever those are. I guess I have always wanted to help people, and I do when I get the opportunity, but even that seems like it's not enough. So it's a new year and I am hoping this is my year to figure out where God wants me to serve. Those of you who might happen upon my little blog, please if you would, say a prayer that my mind will be open, my heart will receive whatever it is that God wants me to do. I hope I haven't ignored it.
I don't want to bore you with everything that happened in my life in the past year. I don't want a pity party for the trials I have faced and am facing now. I know that God gives us these trials for his plan. Do I understand that plan? No. Should I complain about the trials given to me? No. Should I seek God's grace and accept his will, and give my burdens to my savoir, Jesus Christ? Yes! Is that easy? No! I am far from a perfect Christian, NONE OF US ARE. I want to keep this verse in my head at all times, "Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you." I Peter 5:7 This past fall my church invited a revival group to revive us, and it was wonderful. Prior to them coming to speak to us for those 4 days, and yes, I attended with my children each night because I felt it was a commitment that was important, my pastor asked that if we felt driven to do so, that we fast, for a week, a few days, a few meals, whatever we were comfortable with, to prepare our hearts for the message. I am not going to tell you about my journey, but I will say that it was good time of reflection for me. I had never fasted in that way before. My journey had me reading in the book of James and Psalms and I was being touched by the words. Psalms 119:50 says this, "My comfort in my suffering is this, your promise preserves my life." God made us a promise, and his promise wasn't that we would not be subject to loss, to pain, to illness, to any sort of trial or bad season of your life. John 3;16 "For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life
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