There's a story inside me itching to get out. Now if I could only find the time to sit down and get started. But what about now, you say? I am literally exhausted. If I tried to write anything where my brain had to really gear up and fingers needed to work, it would be a big mess right now. You should have seen how many times already I have have used the back-space just on this much of my blog post tonight. I like to write when I have a clear head, when I am not feeling like laying my head on my laptop and taking a snooze. With two kids at home again for the summer and a borrowed child I am kept very busy during the day and I gotta say, they wipe me out. Maybe not in physical form as I am not leaping and jumping and bouncing as they are, but maybe just mentally drained. I usually don't have more than a few minutes to sit down at my desk as they are going in and out of the house and requiring my attention frequently. So at night when the kids are in bed is my "me-time", only then I am too tired to want to do anything but relax. I guess a true writer would push through exhaustion..but I get grumpy if I don't sleep and my kids wouldn't like that...think of the Hulk..that could be me.
I still have the issue of putting too many things on my plate. Too many interests and can't or don't want to focus on just one. Drawing, writing, jewelry/crafts - all things I love, all things i don't have much time for though I am trying to make time for the jewelry as I am trying to sell what I have made. It's slow going in that department. Partly because I am not a sales-person I think, but also because it's very competitive and I of course tell myself it's because nobody likes what I am making - I hope that's not true. I know people want to see me use more expensive materials, however, I can't spend loads on that and have nobody buy anything still - I have a family. I get compliments on my rings even from strangers, but it never goes any further than that. I'm not really sure why. I have even attempted donating my stuff for people to raise money for their events and still I get not one more customer. I have been doing everything I have read online to do other than craft fairs and that is merely because I can not find any in my area. I was thinking of renting space at a local flea market but I would seriously need more inventory I think (just for display purpose not that I think I'd sell out). My other concern with that is, does that make my stuff seem cheap? Which brings me to my on-going problem..pricing. I feel I am pricing fair. I did a lot of research on it and prices compare to whats on the market for similar items but I have been told my prices are too low - but still, if they are nobody is buying anything why should I think they would if I would increase them?
On a positive note, if you've been reading my blog at all, I have now lost about 26 lbs on Weight Watchers since I joined in March. I can't be happier about it though a voice in my head tells me it's not enough, you have far more to go and it's not happening fast enough. I am trying to tune out that little voice. I am doing what I should and I know that. 1-2 lbs a week is coming off - my goal is for 2, but happy if there is at least 1. In the coming weeks/months I want to set aside a post about my journey and maybe help others on theirs so watch for that.
By the way, my car saga continues.
it's hard when you have so many things you want to do, and so little time to do it!!! just hang in there, and fall will be here before you know it!!! I am not getting to paint at all this week, and I have a huge show in August I need to gear up for!!! As for the story, I would, if you don' tmind my 2 cents!, just write a little of it down at a time, because you can always edit it... or, let it perculate, as long s you don't lose sight of it... :) Perhaps going to bed earlier, and getting up earlier, and I know that can be hard too!!! As for the weight, GREAT job!!! it's hard, but you are doing very well... you hve a main goal of whatever weight loss, but set small little goals. set 4 more for that 30 lbs, and then 35, 40, etc, till you get what you want. it's frustrating w hen you don't lose any at all one week, which does happen. I hated plateaus!!! but we push past it, and keep on truckin!!! Good job. I am so happy to see you setting those goals, and going after them. :)
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