My daughter has begun preschool 3 days a week for a mere 2 1/2 hours each day while my son started 1st grade. So, my plan for that 2 hours is to get all this stuff done that I really wanted to do all summer but found no time for. On my list of things, and it's a long list, is writing for one. As anyone can see that might happen upon my blog, I haven't been keeping up with writing and what I have been writing has been very un-inspiring. I have a lot to say, trust me, words fly about inside my head all the time, so many that I can't get them down fast enough before more are there shoving the others out of way. It gets very crowded in there! That being said, I have never been a chatter box, or someone who is very outgoing or speaks a lot out-loud, I just have the words inside and like to write them down. Writing seemed a logical step for me. I've had encouragement in the past by several meaningful people about my skill and how I should pursue it, and so I wanted too, but I find it so hard to make time to just sit and write when I have a house and family to run. My daughter being in school now seemed like I would finally have time, but as I sit down to write, I feel like I have nothing important to say and yes I have started a teen book that I do intend to finish, but it feels so jumbled up and I continue to have ideas for scenes in the story that everything gets all tangled up in my head I have a hard time figuring it out and getting down perfectly. This is something I have always struggled with.
I also like to research topics. Anything really of interest to me, or things that others have shown an interest in. Research can take hours or even days, or longer to really get a good handle on something. I make notes, I jot down references, I fill my head with the knowledge, reading the pros and cons and making my own conclusion, but then when I think I'd like to make it into an article to share, I either can't find the time, or my energy, my interest in that topic has been depleted or I just feel as though it's been written too many times. You can find a wealth of info out there on the web and I find myself asking why would anyone read my article or my opinion that has basically already been written by someone else? So I don't do it. I guess I am in some sort of rutt or something. Than to make things worse for myself, I have other interests that I often try to pursue.
Drawing has always held my attention. Through most of my life I've been drawing. In my teen years I spent hours drawing cartoon characters, than in my 20s I started to try to seriously draw pencil black and white portraits of people. Sure those early drawings were pretty awful, but anything done well takes practice. I don't practice enough and time is definitely a reason because drawing is very time consuming for me. Than of course I also have always liked designing clothing, especially for Barbie type dolls. Once upon a time I wanted to go to fashion design school. I still think it could be lots of fun. So over the course of the last 15 years I've taken a photography class and a writing class outside of high-school. Both things I love, but I am not sure that I can be disciplined enough to be a writer.
These things, the writing, photography, clothing design/sewing, and drawing are not the only things I thought I could do with those 2 hours. My house needs to be put back in order and there is painting that needs to be done. I am not in love with my body post children, so exercise was high on my list to lose some weight. Now today is only day 2 of being free from children for 2 hours, but what have I done with that time? Basically nothing; and why? because I feel un-inspired to do any of it. How do you get out of slump? How do I get motivated, and better still, stay motivated? I haven't worked this out yet, but if I do I'm sure I'll share it right here on my un-inspired blog.
Some quotes for you, maybe they'll inspire you today.
"Don't let people drive you crazy when you know it's in walking distance". ~Author Unknown
"It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not". ~Author Unknown
"If you hear a voice within you say "you cannot paint," then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced." ~Vincent Van Gogh
"You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice". ~Steven D. Woodhull
"A great deal of talent is lost to the world for want of a little courage. Every day sends to their graves obscure men whose timidity prevented them from making a first effort." ~Sydney Smith
And my favorite for today,
"It's hard to fight an enemy who has outposts in your head." ~Sally Kempton
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